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Hello Again!

“Whoever you are

and whatever helps

I hope today is a day you are finding

the softest way through.” Andrea Gibson

Darlings…it’s me, and I’m back!

I am not sure where to start other than I guess a recap of the last two years since my last blog post, Moving on…Rest and Nourishment, back in March 2023. What a ride it has been! One filled with sacred practices, stillness, quietude, hibernation, rest, nourishment, letting go of burdens not mine to carry, and much discernment with regards to certain people, circumstances or situations I’ve had to let go of because they were no longer serving me or aligned with my values around non-violence, accountability, justice, integrity, dignity, compassion, equal rights, equity, and overall respect for humanity and the very real lived experiences of others. Darlings, sometimes we just have to give ourselves the grace of letting go and release anything or anyone that disrupts our peace and well-being. And we can do so in love! Personally, doing so has created a lot of spaciousness, expansiveness and clarity around how I want to live out my remaining days on this planet.

These past couple of years have also brought some very interesting people, teachers, facilitators and opportunities into my life. Having said all that, I have definitely kept my people close! There’s nothing like being in community with like-minded individuals who are also committed to “doing the work,” as well as putting good medicine out there into the world by sharing one’s gifts and talents in an effort to help raise collective consciousness, helping to heal humanity and the evolution of planet earth. Celebrating friend’s successes, supporting one another and watching dreams come to fruition is also an important part of the process. It’s always important to celebrate milestones along the way!

If you read the March 2023 blog, you’ll know I was focusing on my word that year, which was “nourish…” all things mind, body and spirit. It was much needed too because I had a big move at the time and decided to live at the beach. It was something that was NOT on my radar. I mean I was spending lots of time in my little crash pad but never entertained the thought of doing it full time. It was one of THE BEST decisions I’ve ever made, and also allowed me to cut my expenses greatly by not maintaining another apartment which I was rarely at.

In addition to my usual travels to Florida and Texas, I also got to go to Ghost Ranch, in New Mexico, in September 2023 for a writer’s and rest retreat offered by one of my beloved teachers, Tracee Stanley. She is the best selling author of two books: Radiant Rest and The Luminous Self and the founder of the on-line community, Empowered Life Circle which I have been a member since its inception. Finally getting to meet her in person and being in community with her was a dream come true! It is also where I was honored to have Tracee shave my head our last night together (talk about letting go…more on that another time.)

It was an intimate 11 person retreat that allowed for beautiful friendships to form as we supported each other’s writings, dreams, creativity, shared rest practices and beautiful meditations and conversations. We truly bonded and keep in touch. We set up a weekly call to serve as a writing container, and whomever shows up… shows up.

As a result, I ultimately submitted a book proposal. I only sent it to one agent, but she had to pass because apparently there were a lot of proposals out there dealing with all things mind, body, spirit and mental health and well-being. I did receive some good feedback though. However, the last thing I want is a job that requires a lot of social media presence, followers, emails, website, etc. On the contrary, I look for ways to regularly limit my time and disconnect from social media for a month here and there throughout the year. If I want to publish a book, it will have to be self-published. It is what it is!

Another, long awaited and dreamed about opportunity is when I found Alua Arthur who is an End of Life Death Doula, the founder of Going with Grace and best selling author of Briefly Perfectly Human. I really don’t know how I came across her TED Talk in 2023, but I instantly fell down the “all things Alua” rabbit hole! Training to become an end of life doula had been a dream of mine for a long time and a role I have played throughout my life (most of us have without even realizing it). If you’ve read some of my older blogs, you will know that I’ve had an intimate, up close and personal relationship with death since I was a little girl. And having had a near death experience back in 2012 further cemented that relationship and desire. That dream came true as I traveled last year to Arizona for the in-person training last year.

I think that seed may have been planted back in 2008. There was this Hospice worker named Nick whom I met when my mama was at the end of her life, and he impacted me greatly, as did the publication he gave me- Crossing the Creek– which assists family and the person coming to the end of their life to understand the dying process and what the body goes through mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually in preparation for dying. If you google it, you will see the author made it a free, downloadable PDF. I cannot even begin to tell you how many people I have shared Crossing the Creek with over the past 17 years, the meaningful conversations I’ve had and the much needed conversations that have been facilitated as a result of sharing it (mini doula at work). Sharing is caring!

The last few years have found me deepening my meditation practice by way of daily Yoga Nidra practices. Who knew that Yoga Nidra practices could be so revealing, restoring, nourishing, enlightening, restful, relaxing and how they, too, prepare you for death. Being in that liminal space, that portal, that void, gives you a sense of clarity as well as a multitude of opportunities for inner investigation, awakening, growth and transformation. One is more present to life (and death), and allows us to move with intentionality and purpose. The practices allow us to remember who we are, why we are here and our inextricable connection to the natural world. I have learned, and remembered, so much being part of the Empowered Life Circle online community! And I’ve met so many beautiful souls. Needless to say, these practices have also allowed me to stay rooted, grounded and resourced especially during these challenging and heartbreaking times we are living.

Full transparency here: I do not know where on Instagram I found the following passage, but I just came across it as I was rereading some things from the beginning of 2025 that I had written. It’s unlike me not to cite who or where I saw it….guess I never planned on sharing it until now. It pretty much speaks to how I rolled into 2025, and I’m certain it will resonate for many of you- especially if you are a highly sensitive person:

“My heart no longer has the capacity to reside in love where only war exists. I will sacrifice my pleasure to keep my peace. The standard of safety within my mind, body, heart and spirit are non-negotiable. I vow to never jeopardize the degrees of healing I’ve accessed for anything or anyone. Everything is worth losing for me to not lose myself. I am not desperate for company that’s usually draped in the misery, hurt and insanity that took root long before me. I only welcome the presence of ease, health, rest, assurance, respect, appreciation, reciprocity, oneness, gentleness, calmness, laughter, security, freedom and protection. Anything else would be an impure distraction and inflamation to my being. I close all doors that are open that don’t serve the highest good and greatness for all. May I only align with the likeness of all that represents maturity, trust, open communication, honesty, resolution, patience, understanding, empathy, discipline and direction. As I am complete. We are complete.” And so it is, darlings!

So… I entered 2025 with a great deal of clarity, and my word for the year has been “tend.” Yes, I am tending to all things mind, body and spirit and the Tend Collective (tendcollective.co), as well as the Empowered Life Circle, regularly offer up practices to help us do so. Think about this for a moment: If we do not tend to ourself FIRST, how can we show up for others, tend to others, and do the things that life calls us to do?

This recap pretty much brings me to the here and now. Where do I go from here? Allow me a few more moments to tell you…wink, wink!

After the Going with Grace end of life training, which was very intense, hands on, thorough, entailed a lot of research, assignments, as well as loads of deeply profound inner inquiry, holding and bearing witness to other people’s grief, and the fact that we live in such a death phobic culture here in the US, I’ve decided to take on the role of Mortality Conversationalist and do what Maya Angelou always said: “When you learn, teach.” Also, Alua Arthur and the GwG team awakened us to the need for education and awareness around the various roles a death doula plays and the much needed conversations families, medical professionals, health care systems, and individuals should be having around one’s own mortality.

Can you believe there are doctors and medical professionals who do not even know the difference between palliative care and hospice? And that they are 2 extremely and tragically underutilized services? And that it some cases, these services, that can be offered up to a year or longer before a person dies, are often not recommended until a mere few weeks or month before a person dies? That’s for another conversation!

Moving forward, my goal is to offer up Mortali-tea with your very own Mortality Conversationalist in the form of perhaps a twice monthly blog post. I suggest you prepare some tea (or beverage of choice), have some snacks on hand as well as a journal or sketch pad and your favorite writing or drawing instruments before tuning in to read the next post. Writing is a somatic practice that is so damn good for the nervous system, but if your choice is to type in your notes or use voice record for your answers, that’s OK too. Your choice, my darlings! Just know there will be a host of opportunities, inquiry, resources and book recommendations for you to delve into and explore your own relationship to all things related to death and dying and sometimes with some much needed humor sprinkled in. That is a very empowering thing!

I will leave you with one tidbit in the form of a question that Alua Arthur encourages us to ask ourselves everyday, and that is:

“What must I do to be at peace with myself so that I may live presently and die gracefully?”

Sit. With. That.

Till next time!

BE the light, spread the love and be a blessing!

Much gratitude for you taking the time to read my musings and even sharing when you feel called to do so. Oh, and Full Moon Blessings to you! xoxo JT Carricarte

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Sharing Love

“The chance to love and be loved exist wherever you are.”

So does the opportunity to share the love others put out there. And that is precisely what I’ve chosen to do on this Valentine’s Day 2021. As I read Maria Shriver’s Sunday Paper just now, I realized that all the sentiments she expressed resonated for me. I could not have written it any better!

So… in the spirit of caring, sharing and loving on this Valentine’s Day 2021, I’ve decided to share Maria Shriver’s essay, titled “Rest in Love.” I realize some of you may already subscribe to The Sunday Paper. In that case, read no further. Just know I’m sending you BIG love from my heart to yours.

I hope Maria’s essay lands just where it needs to land on this day…. right smack in your heart space. I invite you to have a journal or something to write on so that you can reflect on the essay and write about the feelings, emotions, experiences, memories, dreams, hopes, sensations and intentions that may have arisen as you read. Here goes….

Happy Valentine’s Day!

Does hearing that make you smile, or does it make you weep? Are you looking forward to today, or are you mad that you aren’t where you want to be when it comes to love? If your answer is the latter, let’s take a walk (not a real one, of course, although I’d love that). Let’s take a moment to simply connect and be.

After all, that’s what love is really all about. It’s about being wholly yourself with another human and feeling loved for who you are. It’s not about a fancy dinner, a piece of jewelry, flowers, sex, or chocolates. Don’t get me wrong, those things are great, but they don’t define love on their own.

Love is deep. It’s varied. It’s complex and yet also simple. It’s romantic but also platonic. It can fill your heart up, and it can break it into a thousand little pieces.

I’ve learned a lot about love over the years—what it is and isn’t—and much of what I’ve learned has come from a painful place. That said, it’s all helped me get to a more loving space in my life.

Here are a few things I’ve learned:

Love is about acceptance. It’s not about changing someone to fit your needs.

Love is about feeling fully seen and understood. It’s also about loving yourself deeply and wholly first. Don’t try to alter yourself to gain love. It doesn’t work.

I wish I’d known about all the different love languages (they are really important and useful). I wish I’d known that every single person speaks love differently and needs something different from you. Challenge yourself to learn the love language of the people in your life.

I wish I’d known the importance of clearing up and cleaning up your attachment issues before you unconsciously throw them onto someone who has no idea what they are responsible for.

I wish I’d known that love can go slow. It doesn’t have to be fast, exciting, or on the edge. As a friend once said to me, contentment is underrated.

I wish I’d known that some people simply want to rest in love. They just want to be, not do. Be courageous enough to rest with love.

I wish I’d known that a deep friendship and a deep love can go together. I wish I’d known that conflict was inevitable in love, and that learning how to argue effectively is an art form that can actually bring people together.

I wish I’d known that everyone has triggers, and everyone has trauma. Be informed about both, otherwise you are going to keep tripping on land mines.

To be good at love you have to be courageous enough to apologize. Ask for forgiveness. You have to make your relationship a priority. Get good at continuing to make it so.

And, if you come to find yourself feeling less than, gaslit, or scared, know that is not love. Value yourself enough to get up and go even if you don’t know where you are going. And if you are scared to leave for any reason, seek help.

I wish I’d been better prepared for the ups and downs of love and life. Actually, it turns out I was prepared. I just didn’t know it.

When it comes to love, I feel like I’ve learned a lot and like I’ve also learned nothing at alI. I feel like I’m really good at it, even though I’ve made mistakes. Today, my eyes are wide open to love. I see love in me that I never saw before. That makes me happy.

I also see it in people and places I never even noticed before. That makes me grateful. My heart, though bruised, is also wide open. Leonard Cohen wrote that the cracks are what allow the light to get in. I would add that the cracks are what allows the love to get in as well.

Not too long ago, I had a dream that had a profound impact on me. I was out in The Open Field. I was very much alive, and music was playing. I was happy. I was dressed like I was in high school, which is to say like a flower child. I was surrounded by people who have loved me, and even those who have broken my heart. I went to each person and thanked them for being there. I thanked them for loving me, supporting me, and teaching me what I needed to learn. I told them how grateful I was for the love and the lessons. To me, the fact that they were in my dream signaled that the love we shared was still there. It signaled that love had endured even though I didn’t think that it had.

I also took a moment to apologize to those who loved me that I couldn’t love back. I was struck by that; sometimes you can’t love someone who loves you, and sometimes someone you love can’t love you back. It’s usually for a whole bunch of reasons that have nothing to do with you. Remember that.

I’m sharing this with you now just in case you find yourself alone today. Just in case you find yourself dealing with a broken heart today. Just in case you don’t have a date tonight. (I don’t either, lol.)

You see, I believe that everyone who ever loved me, and who ever loved you, still does. That’s true regardless of whether they are still around or not. Their love lives on in you.

That’s the thing about love. The person who loved you may no longer be here. They may have broken your heart, ghosted you, or passed away. But the memory of how you felt when it was good, when your heart felt full, that’s yours. They can’t take that away. You can bring that forth any time you want. You can make your heart feel full even if they are no longer looking into your eyes.

And if you find yourself today still in the midst of a relationship that is challenging or traumatic, then give yourself extra love. If you want to leave, know that you have the strength to do so. Dig deep. You can find it. I know that when things are bad, it can be hard to see the way out. But get quiet and ask yourself what you need. Maybe it’s the courage to speak up, or maybe it’s help from someone else. Believe that you can get there. You can.

So on this day when the world is celebrating what feels like one kind of love, go easy and know that love doesn’t only come in one shape or size. If you don’t have a valentine, don’t despair. Be open today to other gestures of love. Let them in. If someone tells you today that you have made them feel loved—a friend, a child, whomever—let it land. That’s love too.

And if you are in love, if you have your person, count your blessings. Celebrate what you have and be gentle with it because love is so very fragile. It’s the greatest gift of all, and nothing else compares. That’s the truth.

Today, also be mindful of what you say to yourself. Be kind, be loving, and focus on filling your heart up. That’s not someone else’s job. It’s your own. Don’t worry about the cracks. Those that love the best have lots of cracks. Those that love the best have told me there’s no one big secret to enduring love. It’s just lots of little decisions and choices along the way that keep you in conversation, in connection, in commitment, in forgiveness, and in acceptance.

Know that you are worthy of being loved fully, wholly, and completely until the end of God’s time. Believe me, it’s true. Happy Valentine’s Day.